Sacrificial Joy; You

I have so much to fear; though I need not fear at all.
As I grapple with my flesh, I am reminded:

I am the joy of HIS sacrifice.

May It Please You

I inhale your sweet incense
You offer me myrrh
Cleanse me with hyssop
My life, be pure

Breathe life into me
Wash my soul
I need purity
White as snow

Renew your spirit
Bring your peace
To a contrite heart
A child in need

May it please you

Facebook Freedom

I will be going on a Facebook Hiatus, or more so a detox; quite possibly a permament vacation. My mind is severely in need of technical rehab. I have began to notice the negative ways that Facebook is affecting me. It allows me to be completely absent from true relationships and friendships because I can simply answer to the people I am “involved” with only when it is convenient for me. That is definitely not loving others the way that I feel I would like to.

I have also noticed the large amount of time it takes from my spending time with and serving Jesus, my family, others, and myself. These are the most important things in the world to me... or are they. I find myself asking my almost two-year-old daughter to wait to tell me what she needs so that I can see what so-and-so had for breakfast or where they are vacationing. I do not want to miss my daughter's first laughs and all the things my girls are doing and learning because I am captivated by the soft glow of Joe Schmo's Facebook page. Why is that even appealing in the least bit? I understand that we as humans are interested in knowing how others run their lives and the things they choose to occupy themselves with, but is this even real life?

I have also noticed the way that people lie on facebook. We can use it as a tool to make ourselves into a person who is flawless by choosing to display the positive things that we do in life and nixing the negative. Seriously, are we seeing planes? Are we named Tattoo? Because we certainly are living on Fantasy Island!

I have decided that when something good happens in my life, when I see something I like, or learn something new that I do not want my first thought to be I need to share this on Facebook. I want to soak it in for myself. I want to experience it for my own knowledge, relationships, and happiness. I want to experience true friendships and connections with my Lord, my husband, children and people! I feel that I am being robbed, and up until recently, blindly. However, I have now been given this revelation and will not allow myself to drown out my opportunity to save myself from social and emotional suicide. I want something real... and cyber-relationships via facebook are not real.

If you would like to be a real-life friend, you can reach me by e-mailing me your phone number at beautyforashes67@aol.com and I will respond with a real-life, warm and comforting “Hello, how are you?” Because I would really like to know how you are and what I can do to love you as a friend. I would also like to share how I am too... the good, the bad, and the ugly. I hope that this is not offensive to anyone. It is just how I feel.

P.S. I will be keeping my blog because it is my creative outlet and a way for me to share the things I feel led (by Jesus) to share.

i am/I am = Forgiven

i am...
foolish
damaged
selfish
judgmental
a liar
demanding
boastful
unfaithful
jealous
proud
imperfect

but...

I am...
Love
Patient
Kind
Truth
Protective
Trusting
Hopeful
Persevering
Unfailing
Faithful
Perfect

i am/I am=Forgiven

1 Corinthians 13:10 -- but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.