After His Heart... again

I have been living my life in a haze. A haze of wrong and right and true and false and pure confusion. God is showing me that it is all a problem that lies in the fact that I have fallen trap to the legalistic expectations people place on me once again. I feel the need to defend myself against "the law". The bible says in Galatians 5:22-23, "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law."

God is showing me that I am fighting for my life. I am defending myself and my heart. I am screaming for freedom from the people who are placing these struggles in my life but all the while I am believing what they are saying over what God says about me. I was listening to Chris Tomlin's song "Kindness", in the song he quotes Psalm 63:3 in saying "Your love is better than life". Well, at the same time I heard him singing this verse I saw it on a friends blog. He revealed to me that I need to get back to His heart. Jesus is showing me that His love is better than my life. It is better than what people think about me. It is more important than the accusations they make. It is more important than what I am fighting for. Once I get back to His heart and trusting Him, fully surrendered and losing my life, I will gain it. When I am focused on His heart I will bear His fruit and in that there is no law! No legalism. Pure FREEDOM!

Everything becomes a blur when we put ourselves into the mix. I couldn't tell left from right. But when I am nestled into God's arms and cuddled close to His heart everything begins to seem so simple. When my soul is living in worship to the God of all creation I cannot help but see anything but Him! Praise the Lord of Heaven and Earth.

In closing, I would like to challenge us to lose the legalism. Let's drop our expectations of people and let them find THEMSELVES in Christ. Let's just love and encourage them through it. They will make mistakes just as we did, do, and will continue to do. Thankfully God doing what He does and some good encouragement from fellow believers can help all of us learn through it. :)

I am a Tree

Trees grow strong, tall, and wise.
They see everything around them but nothing further.
Do they slumber? Do they dream?
Their roots go down deep so they do not fall as they grow weary.
What could cause them to fall?
The brutal antagonization of people making them a spectacle.
Their leaves which are so delicately placed begin to change color and fall with the stresses of the seasons.
They wear their bark proud covering their tender insides which know it's history, it's past; where it has been and what it has seen.
They drink up the water to produce and to give; starving when it is lacking.
Birds make their homes high in their branches... are they friends or imposters? Partners or consumers?
Animals eat from them causing scars and damage.
They breath in the waste of those who hurt them and offer back life.
At the end of the day it still stands tall, strong, and wise; knowing what it has seen and what it has heard.
I am a tree.
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As I took my daughter for a morning walk the sun began to heat up, so we parked in the grass under a tree. I have always loved trees. They just always seemed wise and like there is something mysterious about them. You know like Treebeard or something. ;) I began to let my mind run a bit with thoughts on what a tree is, what it does, etc. I ended up comparing myself and thinking about how the imagery of these beautiful creations matched up with myself. As I began to write I felt that I could let out exactly how I felt and what I knew was going on in me. But as I came to the sentence "They breath in the waste of those who hurt them and offer back life", it all clicked and I saw the truth of why they were so meaningful and so mysterious all this time! Jesus died on a tree to give us our freedom. Yes, but it is more! The tree symbolizes Jesus himself! The tree is a perfect example of the Lord! How perfect and like God is it to make the tool of "destruction" which was really the tool of "freedom" resemble Freedom Himself. This is just proof that everything God has made should point us back to Jesus. God is everywhere. His love and mercies and lurking in the midst of His creation. We just need to seek Him out in it. We can find Him anywhere. Be blessed!

Devotional

It breaks my heart to see young people (and old) going to hell because they can’t understand things that may have happened or they had possibly seen from their childhood or how to deal with them, thus causing them into a life of sin and bondage so early. God has created our human mind so delicate. He has made it so that if we can live within the confines of the things that we can stand to remember and to deal with, pushing the things that might send us over the edge to the back. It is only when we get to a point where we want nothing more than to be, as Oswald Chambers says, “rightly related” to Jesus that He begins to reveal the hurts from our past that had been made into a whirlwind of confusion before. Our mind is like a puzzle, it is a million memories, a million occurrences, a million things we have learned, and these are what make up the pieces. We can try to rebuild that puzzle to make ourselves okay, but without the pieces God has hidden for our protection being either revealed and healed or broken and replaced by nothing more than His peace and love, we can never be made complete.

Things to Come

After a long recess from my blog I have decided I think I am ready to get back at it. Though the task of digging deep within my innermost being and finding the truth in what I have experienced and what I am feeling about it seems a bit daunting, I believe I am ready to take it on with full force. Why not? I have God on my side, and if He is for me then who can be against me? Over these past months the Lord has showed me that I am a bit of a “Martha” when I need to be a “Mary”; and one of the most important reasons God has us Tithe; also about having faith, blessing, and worshiping while dying and the way my mother unconsciously followed this example from Israel (Jacob), and so many other things.

I cannot explain the way that God has carried me through the past months in my life. As I look back and see the things God has shown me in the midst of my hard heart it gives me great faith and courage to think: what if I soften my heart, submit myself fully to Him, and step out on the water? What will God do then? I can only give Him the glory He is worthy of in saying He will be faithful. He will keep His promises, and I will be living completely and solely united with the One True King.

Our Father and our Savior, I pray that you will reign in my heart and help me to do this as I step back into penning Your work into this blog. Bless it and bless our readers, and let all of the glory be to Your mighty name. Amen.

I look forward to sharing all of these things with the beloved reader of Miraculous Romance! Be blessed!

Repentance

This is a song that the Lord gave me after repenting of sins in my life...

My heart is a bottomless pit
My soul, oh Lord, it’s sick
My God, oh God of Jacob
My God, of Abraham
My God, the God of Isaac
My God, come with your staff


Come to me Lord
And bring me peace
Forgive my pride
be Hell’s defeat


Forgive me Lord
I’m on my Knees
El Shaddai please come
And rescue me


I need you now

Sing a New Song unto the Lord

There is a war going on in my head
The enemy has waged attack on me
I lay broken and suffering on my bed
But defeated You say I will not be

My face has lost the shape of that which joy had made it
My eyes are no longer wide with fruit that You have grown
And where laugh lines once were engraved deep into my skin
There is now a barren desert, and a somber tone

But I will not turn my face from You, Jesus
I have made myself humble before the Lord
Though my soul is downcast I can’t forsake You
O God, my King, please remind me I am Yours

I spent some time with Jesus and He has shown me things
Like the way the wind on waves causes doubt within my being
Another thing He showed me, and I know it is true
When I call on Him for help he immediately comes through

Oh I will not turn my face from You Jesus
I have made myself humble before the Lord
Though my soul is downcast I can’t forsake You
O God, my King, please remind me I am Yours

The enemy has lied to me time and time again
God has promised good to me, and on His word I stand
I’ve got a belt and it says truth, a shield whose name is faith
Shoes of peace, the Spirit’s sword, righteousness on my chest

Yeah, I will not turn my face from You Jesus
I have made myself humble before the Lord
Though my soul is downcast I can’t forsake You
O God, my King, please remind me I am Yours

Michelle's Song

Your children arise and call you blessed
Your husband too, and he praises you
You are now in eternal rest
I rest assured my days are few


A woman of God, a fragrant rose
A heart so pure, a love that glowed
Far more precious than rubies or gold
The way I love you, you’d never know


As a child I watched you live
I would mimic the things you did
Your pursuit of Jesus, the time you’d spend
The helping hand you would lend


Your gentle words, your loving touch
I want to be like you so much
A perfect example of the power of God
In changing the heart of a sinner abroad


I can see you now, you’re casting your crown
At the feet of the righteous one
It’s causing me to fall on my knees
in awe of the Holy Son


I wait for the day we will worship together
In front of the one true King
I pray that he binds my heart like a fetter
Attached to the mercy He brings
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